8:15 AM + Saturday, February 24, 2007

does everyone think im a bitch? slut? a desperado girl that wants nth but the attention from every guy in the world??!?!
why is it so difficult to live in a world with every? i always thought the world was an easy place to live in.. until last yr when everything started.. it was the yr i began dating yuresh.. the yr when i got to know more ppl, the yr i opened up to the guys, my world was filled with guys.. everyday, i'd be on the phone.. talking to some guy.. is that really someone that was a desperado? why do you'l think that way? i talk to my gfs too okie! i talk to everyone?! but yet you all had a prob with it.. couldnt i even talk to my ex-bf?!
with yuresh, all the rumours seemed like nth, the qns my frens raised were insignificant.. i couldnt be bothered abt anything.. with him, i knew more guys, i talked to them, but nth more.. i jus treated them like frens.. is being frens with guys a SIN?!?! why then do you criticise me?
i dun like to be called a bitch, a slut or anything okie.. i jus want to be an average girl.. who has frens, a normal life, away from rumours.. is that TAT difficult to acheive??!?!
not saying anything doesnt mean i dun care okie.. i DO CARE VERY MUCH! dun you understand? by me saying i dun care actually means i care! i jus dun want to say it to the world!
is looking like this a problem? i want to look anyway i want okie?! get out of my life! stop critising me! does it make you happy?
i dun do stuff jus for the money! i do it cos of the thrill, the fun? the fact that i can actually know more ppl?! my parents never said anything, why are you commenting on my life?! who do you think you are? who is the one that is entering who's life? i never said every new person i met was supposed to be nice to me? wat a joke! everyone laughs at someone behind your back, even mine.. i've learnt that ever since i opened myself up to everyone.. you dun know me.. i was never so noisy, never so friendly! i was always tis quiet girl sitting in the middle of the class but yet no one noticed me.. it was okie, but from pri 3, i finally got an enemy, and that was when i entered the world that im finding so difficult to escape! i want to run away, but i have no where to run to.. no one to trust, and no one to rely on.. GROW UP! stop pushing the blame on me.. your not the only human being here! i am one too okie! i never said i wld never trust you or anything, i jus dun trust anyone now..
in this post, i wanna thk everyone that has helped me in my hmwk! but i also wanna say sorry to those i have lied to, and hurt.. im sorry for telling your secrets to ppl.. but i really dun mean any harm.. im really sorry..


i never knew holding a penknife and cutting into my skin was so simple.. the blood jus gushes through, but all i can think of is the pain in my heart..

<3 miko ending my life here..

11:41 PM + Thursday, February 22, 2007

8:53 PM +

today is like another fri.. hmm.. days pass so fast la.. its so soon, its FRIDAY again!! haha..
its another boring day.. hahhaa..
haix..
my frens think im a flirt or smth la.. i know they do.. everytime i say smth, "mariko, why you talking abt guys again?"
haix.. -.-ll my look on my face most of the day.. hahah..
anw, now, im listening to AYAKA, the j-pop singer that was published in one of the pages in both teens and teenager?! and i heard the song BLUE SKY, i think thats the song thats nice? but it REALLY IS!!! hahaa.. i reccomand you guys listen to it too! ahha.. http://www.radioblogclub.com/open/131243/ayaka/Ayaka%20-%20Blue%20Days

i dunno if the link is correct, but you can try it? haha..
anw.. you wanna know smth?
im a SLUT!
ya.. you heard me rite.. i called myself a SLUT!
S-L-U-T!
haha..
anw..
gotta go.. post more later!

slutty miko leaving the library..

1:51 AM + Saturday, February 17, 2007

there's nth to do today.. its like all i did so far was to wake up, eat my breakfast, get changed, and head to my uncle's hse.. im serious..

after reaching here, my uncle was in the midst of watching CURSE OF THE GOLDEN FLOWER, so i joined in.. it was quite nice wat.. who tell me NOT NICE?!?! anw, that story is rather sad, its like in the end, everyone dies, and i hate this kind of story lor.. stupid story.. WAT IS IT WITH THE FREAKING THRONE THAT EVERYONE IS WILLING TO DIE FOR?!?! except, prince jai, aka, jay chou, didnt die for the throne, he died for his MOTHER?!! he acted as a filial son, but i think its like WTH? why everyone die? and like, the costumes they wear are very omg.. cos like they squeeze their boobs and all la.. not nice.. it is too much.. ahha.. i dun belive im actually typing all these on my blog, but afterall, this is my blog okie. you guys cannot do anything abt it.. haha..

then, after watching that, my uncle played the movie KING KONG, this one was uber uber sad... at first, i tot it was rather boring la.. but towards the end was when it was more interesting, the climax was simply too slow.. haha.. but then, i cried la.. cos king kong died in the city when it wasnt his fault.. haix.. sad stories are not nice la.. i rather prefer the ever happy endings than the sad endings.. haix..

okie.. so today is like the eve of chinese new year, my cousins and my aunt are playing cards, my other aunties and uncles are playing majong, and im here, at the comp writing this post.. OH YA! sorry girls, i havent got the time to upload the pics into the comp.. but i will so soon!! haha..

stupid jie.. anyhow say.. im hotter than you! haha.. jkjk.. im the ugliest girl in the world can? haha..

ANW, i wanna go play cards le la.. so boring with no one nice online.. earn some money first.. haha..

btw,

3:11 AM + Thursday, February 15, 2007

before i start anything,

HAPPY belated VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

firstly, let me address the tags on my nice nice tagboard! haha.. kuroda, since when have you visited so recently? haha.. anw, no one commented on the time taken to do my blog okie.. comment a bit will die ah? aiya.. okie..

firstly, thk you mr ong.. hows that? good enough? i think its enough! haha..

secondly, maween, you aint smart, this is called stupidity doing stupid things.. haha.. why wld anyone want to hack into another person's acc jus to imitate him/her? RETARD la! haha.. but you do look like him / or / want to look like HIM??@?!?! OMG! maween, why you calling yourself his twin?? why wld anyone a gay for a twin? ahha.. but dun worry sam, i saw someone from your sch that was more gay.. he was carrying a freaking mickey mouse handbag okie.. as in seriously sam, your sch is very disturbing.. weird ppl invade your sch.. hahah.. anw, maween, do consult in a doc, you need it! hhaa..

thirdly, "-.-" dun use this.. i know who you are, and i didnt block you or anything, i jus havent been online in the nite, other than tonite, but you went offline.. so anw, im not angry le la..i dun even rmb why, or wat, but anw, i was jus playing with you, i jus didnt reply cos i was studying ma.. how have i changed? you mean like, now, im more of a bitch, a slut, and everything a normal bimbo wld be? WOW! thks.. i take those as a compliment okie?

haix.. i have concluded, i am too gulible, stupid jeremy always manages to trick me.. stupid jeremy.. but i always believe him la.. stupid me.. haix.. how to not become gullible? its so difficult to trust anyone now..

but now, i seriously have one prob, its like even my clique doesnt trust me la.. no one tells me anything, its not like last yr when everyone in my clique wld tell each other everything.. i mean, thats how you grow as frens rite?!?! i feel like an outsider la.. only needed when they need help or wat.. its like a totally different yr, life, and all.. no one seems to really trust me.. even the ppl i think of as good or even best frens.. haix.. how?

anw, i seriously am trying to shut my mouth okie.. but smtimes, it jus gets out, and even when im not the one who did smth, everyone thinks it me.. ME ME ME.. i dun always want to be the centre of attention okie..

okie.. today, i received two more flowers, one yellow daisy from my sis and another from* nikki darling! * haha.. i think im growing fatter every other day la.. haha.. really okie.. weight is now a serious issue.. i need serious help from serious ppl.. hahha.. i'll upload some pics later on..

i had a physics test today, it was okie.. i managed to ans all the qns okie.. MR HELVA! but then, i also dun think you'll read my blog, you dun even know it exists! haha..

anw, i took a lot of pics today at kap la.. hha.. so guys, you know wat to do if you want the pics, take it from my blog later, thats if i upload them.. hahha...

okie.. gotta go le la.. stupid sis call call call.. keep wanting me to go down for stupid tuition.. haha.. STRESS!! haha..



miko signing out with stress!! haha..

7:51 PM + Tuesday, February 13, 2007

EllO!!

you know wat day is it today? its valentine's!! haha.. i just received quite a lot of gifts, not a lot of flowers *hint!* *hint!* haha.. you know wat i meant rite?

okie.. for those that are not so smart, i mean like, I WANT FLOWERS la.. stupid.. haha.. im like talking to myself, cos i believe no one is as nice as to get me anything.. i've thought to myself, yuresh is not the only guy in the world, though talking abt him still gives me that heavy heart and all, but i got myself into this mess, so i must get out of it myself! haha..

okie.. enough of the emo me.. now, i shall get back to to the happy go lucky miko! haha.. okie..

you know, ytd, i had to go for stupid art.. mr ong is gay okie (no offence, but this is my blog..) he's so mean.. dun gimme cookie.. T.T but then i got my revenge by poking him.. its uber funny cos like he jerks when i poke him la.. haha.. okie.. now, after art, i had to rush off for tuition, i ate instant mee cos i tot i wouldnt have enough money to pay for the roses later.. and after tuition, daddy dropped me off to pick up the roses, and you know wat?!?!

HE PAID FOR THEM TOO!! haha.. saved $10 jus like that! haha.. so cool rite? anw, after reaching home, i manged to catch the part when the judges were speaking to the last contestants abt their speech, and then it ended.. i had to bathe and all, and then i started to bake cookies.. then, i only slept at 1 plus...

finish later la.. bell rang loads earlier.. ><

miko rushing off!!

8:49 PM + Sunday, February 11, 2007

you know, the other week, i did the character analysis thingy, and i found out that my style of learning was audio and visual, but there were other characteristics to my learning styles you know, they commented on my studies, the way i studied, the way my whole life revolves ard me and all.. you know wat else they said??!?!

they said that i had a GLASS HEART...........................-.-ll

as in, rite now, a lot of ppl know that i've broken up, and in case you didnt know, im telling you again.. and you know wat im feeling now? i wun say.. cos he reads my blog i think? and mr ong too -.-ll

anw, mr ong, if your reading my blog, i wun miss anymore lessons okie? my parents didnt scold me anw, they jus said try not to miss anymore nxt time.. haha.. your plan to get me into trouble has failed.. i wun go on cos you are a teacher, if not.. dun tell you! xP

anw, back to the glass heart thing, i think its true, but i wun tell you why, my heart really does take a long time to heal, plus, im rather distracted when i was in a relatioship.. i actually think the character thing has helped me get to know myself better! haha.. xD

but still, i dunno? i mite never get into another relationship, but that doesnt mean i'll go les or become a nun okie.. i dunno? im not a futuristic thinker (i think thats wat they call it.. xD)

aiya.. stupid bell's gonna ring.. have to study for chinese ting xie lor! bye!

miko feeling sad, confused maybe? T.T

7:43 PM + Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Haix..

so bored now la.. its like there's totally nth to do now in the library.. so im like reading my mail and all.. though, ever since last friday, i was suppose to post abt that day.. you know, the most unbelievable thing happpened................................
i expressed my "feelings" for a guy... x/
oops said too much.. haha.. wanna find out more? ask me.. haha.. on my tagboard or msn la.. duh.. haha..
with love,
miko signing out without knowing that she's embarrassed herself.. O.O