does everyone think im a bitch? slut? a desperado girl that wants nth but the attention from every guy in the world??!?!
why is it so difficult to live in a world with every? i always thought the world was an easy place to live in.. until last yr when everything started.. it was the yr i began dating yuresh.. the yr when i got to know more ppl, the yr i opened up to the guys, my world was filled with guys.. everyday, i'd be on the phone.. talking to some guy.. is that really someone that was a desperado? why do you'l think that way? i talk to my gfs too okie! i talk to everyone?! but yet you all had a prob with it.. couldnt i even talk to my ex-bf?!
with yuresh, all the rumours seemed like nth, the qns my frens raised were insignificant.. i couldnt be bothered abt anything.. with him, i knew more guys, i talked to them, but nth more.. i jus treated them like frens.. is being frens with guys a SIN?!?! why then do you criticise me?
i dun like to be called a bitch, a slut or anything okie.. i jus want to be an average girl.. who has frens, a normal life, away from rumours.. is that TAT difficult to acheive??!?!
not saying anything doesnt mean i dun care okie.. i DO CARE VERY MUCH! dun you understand? by me saying i dun care actually means i care! i jus dun want to say it to the world!
is looking like this a problem? i want to look anyway i want okie?! get out of my life! stop critising me! does it make you happy?
i dun do stuff jus for the money! i do it cos of the thrill, the fun? the fact that i can actually know more ppl?! my parents never said anything, why are you commenting on my life?! who do you think you are? who is the one that is entering who's life? i never said every new person i met was supposed to be nice to me? wat a joke! everyone laughs at someone behind your back, even mine.. i've learnt that ever since i opened myself up to everyone.. you dun know me.. i was never so noisy, never so friendly! i was always tis quiet girl sitting in the middle of the class but yet no one noticed me.. it was okie, but from pri 3, i finally got an enemy, and that was when i entered the world that im finding so difficult to escape! i want to run away, but i have no where to run to.. no one to trust, and no one to rely on.. GROW UP! stop pushing the blame on me.. your not the only human being here! i am one too okie! i never said i wld never trust you or anything, i jus dun trust anyone now..
in this post, i wanna thk everyone that has helped me in my hmwk! but i also wanna say sorry to those i have lied to, and hurt.. im sorry for telling your secrets to ppl.. but i really dun mean any harm.. im really sorry..
i never knew holding a penknife and cutting into my skin was so simple.. the blood jus gushes through, but all i can think of is the pain in my heart..
<3 miko ending my life here..
