I KNOW WAT I WANT IN LIFE ALR!!!
i wanna be needed!
i want ppl to need me.. yes, i dun want ppl to reject me..
haix.. but somehow i get more rejects.. T.T
BUT! nvm! haha.. i shall try to keep my optimism high! and work towards my goal! hahah.. okie.. haix.. you know, i still feel really sad la..
i dun understand why i feel like this.. its like, i still cant forget
HIM.. why? i dunno.. i try my best to hate him, to forget him, but i cant.. its been more than 3 mths, and yet, i cant seem to forget every moment we spent together.. he's hurt me real deep, and i dun blame him for that?! is that possible?! or is it cos im stupid? haix.. i wanna hate him and move on, but wats nxt? i dun wanna start a new relationship.. i cant.. it wun be fair to the other party cos i dun like anyone.. in fact, i've started creating an invisible wall between me and my guy frens.. but it isnt working.. haix..
stupid yong en kept bullying me at church today.. kepy sticking his leg out to trip me la.. then put cake on me.. ARGH! but i got back by putting cake on ANDREA (he's a guy [pronounced as on-dre] haha.. i think?) and KEITH! stupid yong en was too fast.. and i didnt do worship today.. as usual.. but i did stay up to search for the music and all okie.. i even printed out the lyrics, but cos i tot that since there was combine, we wouldnt be having our own session of worship.. but nobody believed me.. haix.. i live a tragic life..
i realised, somehow, no matter how much my parents tell me i get to choose my life, in the end, i still feel like they are the ones who are running my life.. i practically have no say in anything! haix.. my parents have planned it out in such a way that if i dun go to a JC, then im a loser in life.. they also want me to go to university, but have they ever bothered asking me?! no..
haix.. gotta go to slp.. nites..
BYE! <3 miko!
