----i think im a slut..
you know, actually i think that im like a slut or smth la.. maybe a bitch too.. haix.. but its like, smtimes, i never really think before i do anything.. maybe ppl DO have the rite to hate me as a person.. bcos, im no better than the ppl i dun like.. i dun like some ppl cos i think they bitch abt ppl behind their backs, or bcos they are very flirty.. but then, i look at myself in the mirror and i cant help but think..
ARENT I LIDAT?! haix.. you know.. i think that actually, im a real bitch, cos i talk abt ppl i dun like behind THEIR backs too.. i totally am real bitch la.. haix.. i dunno.. plus, can someone explain to me, wat exactly have i done?! is talking to guys really a sin?! their jus ppl can? she can talk to him, she can do this, they can do that, BUT WHEN I DO SMTH, "OMG! did you see wat mariko did? she jus talked to that guy la.. SO SCANDALOUS!" haix.. i feel very sad listening to all these la.. especially when that person is supposedly your "best fren" or "fren".. haix.. T.T
how do you not get your heart broken? im not jus talking abt me.. T.T its not jus abt another girl, ITS ABT ALMOST EVERYONE! haha.. this is a totally random post la.. but still, a post is a post! ahha.. plus..
emptiness DOES kill okie.. drugs are jus one of the ways that emptiness uses to kill ppl! haha! i learnt a lot of factors in this part of my life.. i hope to be able to carry on learning.. but its true.. you never know when you mite jus die.. and when i die, GOD, pls dun set an UBER difficult test for me! >< im terrified of tests!! ^^
okie.. i gotta go slp! ahah.. TIRED!! *YAWNS*!
nites!
<3 miko!
