9:32 AM + Sunday, May 13, 2007

OMG!! i have SOoo much to blog abt today!! its like i did SOoo many things in JUST ONE DAY!! haha.. DADDY has apprently become NICER and MORE GENEROUS today!! haha.. maybe its cos of MOTHER's DAY?!! WAIT!! i got the date wrong, its currently 12.33 am.. and im kinda tired and all [a total understatement].. but i jus wanted to tell the world a lil bit of wat happened, AND THAT IS A LOT OF THINGS!! haha..
so i'll jus blog tmr, NO today, but later today instead!! haha.. OKIE!!

<3 miko!

7:56 AM + Saturday, May 12, 2007

okie..i feel much better now.. thks to a fren of mine.. he didnt do much, but its just really nice! haha.. im sorry if the previous post was a bit confusing with the MOMOREN and BIBI thing.. haha.. but i dun wanna name the ppl out.. ^^

if anyone is sad or smth, and you MUST not mind chinese, visit my fren's blog.. he draws pics! and it can cheer a person up! ^^

http://kennylkh.blogspot.com

im nice okie.. thats why i share my secret with everyone.. haha.. MUST GO ah! xD

okie.. done for today!
<3 miko!

6:34 AM +

haix.. im having this feeling again.. i hate it when i have this feeling.. i just cant help but feel this way la.. since this morning i've been feeling really awful, like i had smth i needed to bare all out abt, but then i tot that maybe it was sat, that was why i was feeling like this, cos normally on sats, i wld feel really awful.. but today is just worse..

its like today, i had 4hrs of math tuition.. dunno how i got past it.. haha.. and before that, i was at home watching "CORNER WITH LOVE"! it was really really really UBER nice! but then i cried and cried cos the girl and guy could not be together, and i found that really touching, cos i somehow cld put myself into the shoes of the girl.. bcos i do miss him okie.. i dun say it, but somehow, i feel like i regret everything i did.. i keep telling myself that time will heal everything, but it hasnt, and its been such a long long time.. everytime i see him from afar, i dun even know whether to cry or to laugh.. though i promised myself i will not cry, not even a tear, i find it harder and harder to keep it in myself.. and today jus made it all worse..

haix.. today, after tuition, on the way to mama's hse, i received a call from a STUPID FREN.. who shall be called "MOMO REN".. and so, when MOMOREN called, i was in the car staring into space like i usually do.. i actually was trying to persuade MOMOREN to go for the sch's POC thing, to raise funds for MGS ROCS, but then MOMOREN had to go on and on abt ME using MOMOREN.. it's always MOMOREN MOMOREN MOMOREN.. NEVER A THOUGHT ABT ME! i've gotten FED UP with all this nonsense you know.. my mum even calls me AUNT AGGY! haix.. its like, i dun mind listening to wat ppl have to say, but smtimes, it gets a bit far off when they describe situations where they like to put ME in, but when it happens to them, they dun like it! WTH la! haix..

its like, MOMOREN kept saying i used MOMOREN, and bcos of that, MOMOREN got angry, and accused my other fren, BIBI, that it was BIBI's idea for everything, when actually, it was jus a lil thing that i thought of to help BOTH BIBI and MOMOREN, but MOMOREN, cld only think of MOMOREN, and then kept thinking that i was making use of MOMOREN.. I GOT SO FED UP, i hung up on MOMOREN.. but MOMOREN sent me an sms and said sorry.. so i forgave MOMOREN..

however, at that moment, i was alr very very sad, and as usual, it has been a norm for me to stay away from the crowd at my mama's hse, and i wld jus stay in my aunty's room, so jus now, i cried inside, cos i couldnt take it..

as i was returning home, MOMOREN called again, and i picked up.. this time, BIBI was with MOMOREN, and then BIBI scolded ME this time, saying i have a big mouth and all, but then its like i only told MOMOREN the truth cos i dun wanna lie anymore, and it was the best way to help BIBI anws.. ARGH! i was SO ANGRY yet SAD, that i hung up on BIBI.. it was like WTH! i did all that bcos i tot i cld help both BIBI and MOMOREN, but i end up getting SCOLDED for smth i think is RITE?! is there no rite in this world?! haix.. then i ended up crying in the car all the way home.. i just needed to let it out.. and my dad and mum kept talking on abt wat real frens are and all.. maybe they are rite..

bcos.. after i reached home, i was so moody and all, i rushed to the toilet and cried while i bathed.. it felt good crying.. to let it out and all.. haix.. i told myself i wouldnt cry, but when i locked myself in the room alone, i cried again.. IM SUCH A CRYBABY! T.T

my mummy must have known i wld have done so, so she insisted on being in coming into my room.. we even stood at my room door for 1hr plus, quarrelling and all.. i kept hitting her, and then i cried again cos i felt bad, and cos i jus needed to cry la.. then she told me, true frens wun scold you over this petty things, they wun shout at you or not listen to your explanations.. maybe she is rite.. maybe i shld not be crying..

BUT I CANT HELP IT! i need to help them.. i NEED TO BE NICE! i'll feel really bad if im not nice to someone.. i cant be ruthless to anyone.. i'll jus burst out laughing somehow.. haix.. i dun wanna be an evil witch or smth.. I DUN WANNA!! >
anws, MOMOREN called again, and then i picked up cos MOMOREN used MOMOREN's FREN's phone.. then MOMOREN said sorry without knowing wat MOMOREN did, cos MOMOREN said i sounded sad and angry.. but it is USELESS saying sorry if one doesnt know wat one has done wrong am i not correct?! haix,, anws, BIBI also talked to me on the phone, but BIBI didnt think it was BIBI's fault, kept asking wat MOMOREN did wrong when MOMOREN didnt do anything wrong.. haix.. IM JUS VERY CONFUSED NOW!! i wanted to laugh jus now while on the phone, but i controlled myself.. i couldnt give in so easily!! T.T

then they very smart, HANG UP on me la.. BAKA! dun like THEM! i hate myself for this feeling.. i dun hate anyone, i hate myself.. why am i so STUPID! ARGH!

im not in the best of moods now.. i'll jus scream at someone, but end up crying again.. ARGH! why am i like that?! i wanna cry again la.. T.T

anws, PEACE OUT..

<3 miko!

5:41 AM + Friday, May 11, 2007

*~ the story continues ~*

okie.. as i was saying, the FREAKING door was unlocked, and everyone was settling down in the chapel.. a bit TOO relaxed though.. haha.. we then realised we had to get the mikes on and set up the equipment, but only got 2 things to get ready, the electric piano and the guitar, pathetic i know, but still as GOOD! haha.. anws, we had a lot of difficulty trying to get the STUPID mikes to work can? haha.. it was like, we tried EVERYTHING! and i mean EVERYTHING! i gave up working it, so i went to be the mike tester instead, and act retarded and all.. haha.. it was like i was singing," LONELY, I AM SO LONELY..." without the mikes on of cos.. i was jus singing out loud to myself and the world ard me! haha. and i was pretending that i had my own lil competition, introducing myself to the world and all.. haha.. NOT THE MAIN TOPIC!! hhaa.. anws, after doing that, somehow, SCRATCHY and AMELIA, miraculously work the MIKES! ahha.. YIPPEE! haha.. and then we played ard some more, until we finally got down to business.. did i mention that there was one mike that we tot cld not work, it was the one i had, and we took UBER UBER long to figure out why it wld not work no matter wat.. GUESS!! =/

if you guessed correctly, it was my fault! cos i switched it off accidentally, so it wld not work no matter how much they tried.. DUH! haha.. miko is so dum dum.. haha.. sorry.. must say my retardedness to the world first la.. ahha..

anws, as we practiced, we met with problems of trying to link the songs together, and how to sing it in pinch, and wat pinch or tone wld we play it in and all, and it was DIFFICULT i tell you.. i NEVER knew it wld take so long la.. by the time we got the equipment woring, it was alr nearing 3 o clock, and i had actually told my NICE aunty that she cld pick me up at 330, which was IMPOSSIBLE!! so of cos, i ended up getting an EARFUL from her when she realised i wasnt done and she had waited so long for me.. SORRY!! >

so.. practice went on, we ran thru the songs, finally got the tune to my head.. haha..
1) mighty to save! (love this song!)
2) from the inside out
3) smth smth smth..>< (i know i chose this song, but i really dun rmb wat it is><)
4) here i am to worship..

and im suppose to pray in between.. haix.. uber scared la.. ><
so we're supposed to practice on more time and all, but then no one is free the nxt 2 days, and then the thing is on monday, SURE DIE!! haha.. then how?

oh ya!! this mite sound mean and all, but i must say okie.. its like AMELIA is freaking off pitched can?! its like she is mono tone de.. then when MARBLE asked who is off tune even tough we all knew it was so AMELIA, she immediately went,"its mariko! its her!!" i was like,"WAT?! why me?" but nvm lor.. but i almost gave up in the middle and wanted to leave la.. if not for my frens who persuaded me to give it another chance.. haha.. it was okie rite? haha.. anws, got PISSED off with AMELIA a few times la.. keep slacking and all.. and she even had probs with who to signal la.. haix.. the prob with her signalling is that she signal wrongly one.. then if its wrong, how to get it rite?! haha.. so i sreamed at her a few times, cos she was like jus sitting ard and all can? haix.. T.T haha

BUT A FEW MORE DAYS AND ITS OVER RITE?! KAMPATE MIKO!! ^^

AFTER THAT, the nite was more interesting can?! my daddy caught one rat that was lingering in the basement of my hse.. my bro apparently laid a trap for the rat.. ahha.. and rusty was barking at it the whole nite.. haha.. so like my dad and i, being the only ppl awake at that time went down to look, and we saw the stupid rat there.. with rusty wanting to attack it, but yet the rat showed its teeth and retorted agressively la.. SO VICIOUS! haha.. i was SOoo scared i didnt even dare to go close or anywhere in my hse after that la.. my daddy kept hitting the rat's head over and over till it died.. SAD can?! i actually pitied the rat for a second.. but then it got really disgusting, the thought of it crawling all over me one day.. haha.. so maybe daddy did the rite thing?! ahha..

END OF YTD!!

7:44 PM + Thursday, May 10, 2007

YAY!! haha.. im like in sch now la.. BAKA PPL WHO NEVER COME TO SCH!! hmph!
anws.. today is like DOODLE DAY!! haha.. have been doodling on my science pad, on the chinese newspapers and all la.. if i have time i upload the DOODLES! ahha.. xD
i think i a bit de siao le la.. but it is fun you know! ahha.. COS I GET TO BLOG!! haha..
SORRY PPL for not wanting to go to WILD WILD WET tmr.. i wanna go de.. but i too fat.. haha.. go there only to show my fats to the world, then you all laugh at me.. T.T hmph! haha..
to my ugly didi - haha.. YOU ARE SOooo NOT A BABY la.. even if you were one, you'd be an ugly baby!! xD YOU MAKE CC ANGRY?! i dun like you.. MAKE MY BESTIE ANGRY!! hmph! and hitting on maween means you are interested in her get it?! I AM NOT A PIG CAN?! very tired ma.. later dun wanna end up scolding ppl again.. T.T haha.. YOU ARE A SADIST, and you ARE mean! hmph! dun wanna talk to you le la.. GO AWAY FROM MY BLOG!! BLEAGHX! xD

to my ah lian / tomboy jie! - YOU AH! like that stupid didi, purposely come and tag my blog make me angry.. you two no sch good la.. MUST TELL ME MEH?! HMPH!! I LOVE YOU TOO!! but i dun love you now.. cos you no sch!! LOL! xD

bernice - WEI! you sick a not?! still can use comp! HMPH! you ah.. JIA SICK DE LOR!! haha.. DUN LIKE YOU TOO! haha..