----oh oh oh.. im here to rant..
RANTING SESSION AGAIN!
you know, i never figure how i can get along with my sister at times, cos i guess we're just really extreme sisters.. its like, sometimes, if we're nice, we'll be REALLY nice to one another, but when we're not happy with one another, feelings just escalate so high, it can reach the sky.. its like HELLO?! im wondering why!
i just had another one of my quarrels with my sister. okie. i started it. this time, it was purely my fault, and i just threw my temper at my sister, and i aint saying no sorry to her okie. so dun expect anything from me, i mean, she was after all, being a bitch. and i aint hiding that fact. but that doesnt mean you guys out there can start calling her that.
cos she IS still my lil sister. so you can tell me face to face the things you hate about her, but not behind mine or her's. cos i hate that kind of people.
P.S. be nice with your comments.
anws, it started with my dad pissing me off first okie.. not allowing me to watch tv and all, and thats like part of my daily entertainment after the whole day at school. okie. i had my enjoyment already, like with charisse, shopping i mean. it was a bit annoying, and i wun hide it. lol. CC knows how annoyed i got with her and her "fussyness". i guess that could have added up to the anger.
so, my mummy wanted to count the money she owed me.. she still owes me another 10, but i'll just wave it and be a good daughter. *smiles at myself for being so thoughtful*
and then my sister comes in the conversation and starts calling me a cheat, always saying i always use the pretext that mummy still owes me money when she doesnt, and i was like," shut up when you dun know nth" and all.
and then i rmb that she owed me money, and wld'nt pay me back, saying that she aint got no money when she just got a hong bao from our tutor. so it was a lie! a pure lie.
and after that, we started quarreling, and my dad scolded me! ME! like, HELLO?! she played a part in it, why scold me?!! so anws, i got pissed as usual, and stormed out of the room. it was simple. i went to her bag, cldnt find the hong bao, got irritated, threw her wallet, and sat down in front of the laptop. she walks over, stands next to the plug and pulls it out. SNAP. thats how the laptop switched off. i immediately screamed, "F***KING B***H!" and started scolding her, she obviously cldnt out talk me and my vulgarites cos she stammered here and there. i just kept pounding her, virtually hitting her with my language of rubbish. i wanted to stop. i swear! but it just slipped out of mouth, one word after another.
then, i just stopped talking to her, actually, it was her turn to walk off. then i just stared at the reloading laptop, and reflected. it was the worst feeling ever. the one where you wanna throw up at the disgust of yourself. the monster i've become. so easily angered. where has all my patience and good virtues gone to?
i asked my mummy as usual, why she gave birth to such an annoying sister like her, and she replied as usual, "ask GOD."
i dunno how to approach her. i feel damn bad, deep down inside, i wanna say sorry, but my pride just wun let me. i'd cry my hearts out get the stuck up feeling in me, but i cant. can anyone understand this feeling?
i wun go on.
nights.
