----im sad..
im wondering, if anyone has ever felt like im feeling before..
like even i have never felt like this before..
and im not getting all holy now or anything,
but i really need to get this out..
its like God is the one thats testing me,
training me, making me a better person..
and i only understood this after talking to wayne..
THKS my brother from another mother! LOL!
okie.. getting lame on myself..
but still..
i think God must have a plan, for making me experience all this..
from the first incident, the one involving nic..
the first one that left a deep impression on me, i mean, it hurt deeply,
and its one of the first lessons about life that i learnt.
now, its about today..
its just that suddenly, everything seems so superficial.
like, i dunno wat frens are called anymore..
i cant tell which ones are true or not..
its so..
it started with me suddenly having to plan a National Education skit.
smth i always HATE to do..
to plan smth for the class to do and perform it..
i mean, it hard to get the class organised..
and i think those that have tried before can relate to this..
i had to stay up, and sacrifice my slp to do a script that no one in my class appreciated.
i mean, think about this,
i did a nice script that i put so much effort into it, and yet no one cared.
and then they even asked me,"mariko, why dun we have a powerpoint slide? why didnt you do it?! everyone has one!"
HELLO?!!
reflect, maybe its cos no one was helping me, and i cldnt do everything by myself?!
IDIOTS..
and like even melody lim! idiot la..
my phone got confiscated..
not anyone's fault, so i wun blame anyone,
but cant they understand how i feel after my phone got confiscated?!
like, im not feeling happy..
so dun irritate me further wat..
ask mel where she was,
then i told her i was coming..
but when i reached there,
SHE WAS GONE...
i felt so alone la.. but you'll never get it,
cos i'll never do smth lidat to anyone..
even if it was someone that wasnt close to me.. much less a person im SO close to.
but no, mel, you did just the exact opposite.
and i had no way to get you!
or did you forget I DUN HAVE MY PHONE?!!
now, i need to pray for patience and forgiveness..
but most importantly,
for God to mend my broken heart.. T.T
haiz..
okie.. wun blog anymore..
sad mariko leaving..
